okay. so like quite afew people commented on how i could NOT go for the wake on saturday. and also not go to the memorial on wednesday. well for the 2375293th time, im saying.. i had plans with bev on saturday. it was planned like quite long ago. and then you will go.. 'but she passed away.. how could you not go to her wake and see her for the last time? you can always see bev.. but that was the last time you're gonna see her.' well i guess im just not very good at managing my time and all okay. but she and her family have been in my prayers every night and whenever i remember her okay. please dont put me out as such a heartless person? i dont really think its the actions and all. i think its the thought? okay.. im just finding excuses. besides how do ya want me to go to a wake with red hair? you know how disrespectful it is?